Monday, December 28, 2009

finally going to get my nose pierced today :)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing . It turns up when you don't really expect it . Its like one day you realize that the fairy tail may be slightly different than you dreamed . The castle well ,it may not be a castle . And its not so important happy ever after , just that its happy right now . See once in a while , once in a blue moon , people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away .
my moms up making cupcakes at 12.10 am
haha i love you mamma

Monday, December 21, 2009

what you've given me
is more than i can say
cause i don't know the words
to thank you properly

you pulled me from the grave
and stood me on a hill
and when i was afraid
you made me still

for the love you bring , owe you everything
for the breath you give your my cause to live
for the love you bring owe you everything
for the breath you give your my cause to live
for everything under the sun i owe you one

chaos all around
explosions and fire
you took me off the ground
and lifted me higher

when trouble knew my name
that was before you
ill never be the same
now that i know you

Sunday, December 20, 2009

i love you and I'm sorry i don't come visit often but I'm so hurt by you and i hate the fact your so stubborn and refuse to believe or see what you've done to me , to her and to them is wrong i hate that this is gonna be the first Christmas well have without you , i hate that your getting sick and that i know if anything happen to you i would hate myself for not seeing you and telling you i love you more but i cant stomach being in that place and knowing you could change everything and make everything better if you wanted to , its been four years I'm tired of waiting . i miss you , the real you .
You really shouldnt say 'i love you' if you dont mean it But if you mean it , you should say it alot . People forget

dont be shocked if i cry
youv changed me inside
i turned my back on you
you were the only reason i pulled through

Saturday, December 19, 2009

im better near to you

Friday, December 18, 2009

Christmas Party at my house tonight with all my
favourite people , its gonna be GREAT
pretty much your just two faced and i want nothing to do with you

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

i didnt think help could come in the form of a person

but there you were

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

you breathe life back into me

Monday, December 7, 2009

cause i dont need to see it to believe it
i dont need to see it to believe it
cause i cant shake this fire
burning deep inside my heart
Ive realized that when people speak negative hurtful things into your world they scar and stay with you forever and eventually you start to believe those horrible things i refuse to believe them anymore .

Friday, December 4, 2009

Someone you haven't even met yet is wondering what it'd be like to know someone like you.

It'd be nice if you could stay a while.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

she waits for him , i smile across her face
she runs to him with arms wide open
she says Daddy , i love you
your all i need and more you are me hero
hold me in your arms never let me go
before its to late i thought you should know
i love you , i wish that you didn't have to go
you make me laugh when no one else can
so please Daddy please come home
now things arnt the same
she wants to know him more than just by name
shes holding back those tears
so he doesn't have to see her sad
all she wants is to hear him say baby i love you
before its to late i thought you should know
i love you , i wish that you didn't have to go
you make me laugh when no one else can
so please Daddy please come home

By my little sister Katarina

the little time i spend with you means the world to me you have no idea . i wish i could see you more i hope things get better soon and you realize what shes doing to you because your not who you use to be and sometimes when were together and your away from that place and away from her i see the real you , and i love the real you more than you know . please come home .

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

things are good , really good

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Brittany , Chermayne and Lys you girls
are amazing last night was so much fun
"you remember me , you tried to get
my face pregnant " i love you

Sunday, November 29, 2009

You found me upside down. Back to front. You pulled me out from the inside. I never said thank you .

so thank you for never leaving me , for always being there any hour of the day and for always showing me unconditional love im so thankful to have you in my life

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

How come you only use your blog to write about me ? Its flatering , but c'mon don't you think its a tad pathetic ?
i dont understand why i miss you

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

amazing day , amazing people , amazing God

Friday, November 20, 2009

you are the most beautiful person i have ever met

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

i love when randoms confess thier love for me on msn . wow

Monday, November 16, 2009

you have no idea how much our little talk meant to me i couldnt help the tears from filling up my eyes i was just happy to hear from you , to know you still care and to know your ok i know weve changed alot but you were one of the bestfriends ive ever had someone i could be completey myself with ill never forget the laughs untill we cried , the times i would come to your house and have nap in your cloud bed while you listened to music , how you'd make me toppers and bring them to me or how we walked to your dairy and you kept saying "i feel like im on skins" while we watched an old man try and play the hermonica to some gangster beats . you were a big part in my life and i will always love you . i miss you

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can start tomorrow
From stealing all my time

And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barley breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead

And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
Is there healing?
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be okay

Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Im so happy

Friday, November 13, 2009

If I could take these words
And fill them up with air
I'd fly you to the stars
So we can disappear
If I could take your heart
And keep it close to me
I swear it will not break
I swear it will not bleed

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

i love him , amazing

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

you disgust me . your so fake i dont understand how you can act like my friend telling me things like "im here if you need to talk" and sending me all those text telling me you love and miss me , when the whole time youv been saying all that crap behind my back . and then when i confront you , you have nothing to say . grow up , your a coward .

Monday, November 9, 2009

today i have to dye my hair , go to my job interview then hangalang with hairy . its 11.OO I should get started .

i have a stalker , creeeeeepy

Sunday, November 8, 2009

its true

Saturday, November 7, 2009

and you brighten up the world
with your eyes and you're so damn
lovely when you're on my mind
cause you're the only one

yes please

orange juice , long drives , night time , winter , coffee , photography , painted nails , mo mo tea , Jesus , no more school , sarcasm , birds , green , high jacking Brandons car with Kaffy , dresses , op shops , tattoos and piercings , next year , my bible , cherry blossom trees , swimming with Kita , my cat , birds , long hair , sushi , the city , hammocks , nahbees , fireworks , holding hands , music , dress up partys , next july , the viaduct , a walk to remember , birds , blue eyes , big hugs , bright lights , sleeping in , my family , listening to lydia when i sleep & birds.

Friday, November 6, 2009

last day of school today , im glad its over but im gunna miss everyone so much . Fire works with all the year 13s tonight at the beach then water tower with some peepz. Going to be a good good night .
i went to mo mo tea lastnight , oh my it is amazing .

& i love you Kaffy .

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I'm discontent with chasing the wind
i want to feel more than air on my skin
like the tide feelings come and go
here today gone tomorrow

i want love i want you
so take this beaten heart
and let it beat for you

I'm scared , yeah I'm scared
only you know how i feel
when i say i don't want to feel anything but love
true love , true love

watch me bloom cause soon ill wither
but your love lasts forever
like the sun life is beautiful
when i rise and when i fall

Saturday, October 31, 2009

im starting to be happy more than im sad again , things are getting better . Halloween party tonight im excited .

i love you

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

oooooo baby i cant wait
you didnt do what you did because you care about me and you wanted to help , actions speak louder than words , you did it to hurt me .

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I am finding out that maybe i was wrong .

That ive fallen down and i cant do this alone

Stay with me , this is what i need , please ?

Monday, October 26, 2009

today has been the best day Ive had in a long time , spent the day at the viaduct and mission bay , then went out for dinner with peepz . finally feeling better about things .

and im really looking forward to june

Saturday, October 24, 2009


Friday, October 23, 2009

tomorrow will not be like today.
tomorrow will not be like today.
tomorrow will bot be like today.
tomorrow i will be happy.

i told you something , because i needed to talk to someone and because i thought i could trust you ,but the fact that your going around telling people just proves i cant . thanks for nothing .

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Everyone says that love hurts , but thats not true. Lonliness hurts , rejection hurts , losing someone hurts , envy hurts . Everyone gets these things confused with love , but in reality , love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain & makes
someone feel wonderful again .Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt .

Friday, October 16, 2009

i have alot going on with me , and i cant even talk to you about it . i really thought out of everyone you would be there .

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

road trip to tga soon , with the brother and friends cant wait .

Monday, October 12, 2009

I don't mind it I don't mind at all it's like you're
the swing set and I'm the kid that falls

Sunday, October 11, 2009

soooo excited about next year .

There's something about the night and the way it
hides all the things I like little black butterflies deep inside me

Saturday, October 10, 2009

town tonight will clo . guna get our dance on in dem clubs yo
schools nearly finished i need to :

. get a job
. get my licence
. save money to move into town early next year

next year will be a fresh start , i need it really bad im so over everything.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

i love drinking "biscuit drinks" , singing really loud to beyonce , jumping the neighbours fence to get grapefruit eating nutmeg and laughing till we cry with Chloe . i love you

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

you wonder why i don't talk to you about everything like i use to , its because what happen last year and the hurt it broughtdoesn't just go away , and after a month i was meant to just get over it you didn't care anymore you never asked how i was doing , and when i did tell you why i was upset your reaction was "oh" and you would just walk away . that's why i don't want to tell you whats going on with me right now because if something that big didn't make you see that i needed you to care and i needed you to talk to me and be there then every other problem isn't gonna matter to you at all , and telling you would just be a waste of breath . I'm sorry that I'm "not the girl i used to be" but i have alot of hurt and anger built up in me and its getting harder and harder for me to hide . and your little digs at me every day are wearing me out faster .

Monday, October 5, 2009