Monday, December 28, 2009

finally going to get my nose pierced today :)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing . It turns up when you don't really expect it . Its like one day you realize that the fairy tail may be slightly different than you dreamed . The castle well ,it may not be a castle . And its not so important happy ever after , just that its happy right now . See once in a while , once in a blue moon , people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away .
my moms up making cupcakes at 12.10 am
haha i love you mamma

Monday, December 21, 2009


what you've given me
is more than i can say
cause i don't know the words
to thank you properly

you pulled me from the grave
and stood me on a hill
and when i was afraid
you made me still

for the love you bring , owe you everything
for the breath you give your my cause to live
for the love you bring owe you everything
for the breath you give your my cause to live
for everything under the sun i owe you one

chaos all around
explosions and fire
you took me off the ground
and lifted me higher

when trouble knew my name
that was before you
ill never be the same
now that i know you

Sunday, December 20, 2009

i love you and I'm sorry i don't come visit often but I'm so hurt by you and i hate the fact your so stubborn and refuse to believe or see what you've done to me , to her and to them is wrong i hate that this is gonna be the first Christmas well have without you , i hate that your getting sick and that i know if anything happen to you i would hate myself for not seeing you and telling you i love you more but i cant stomach being in that place and knowing you could change everything and make everything better if you wanted to , its been four years I'm tired of waiting . i miss you , the real you .
You really shouldnt say 'i love you' if you dont mean it But if you mean it , you should say it alot . People forget

dont be shocked if i cry
youv changed me inside
i turned my back on you
you were the only reason i pulled through


Saturday, December 19, 2009


im better near to you

Friday, December 18, 2009

Christmas Party at my house tonight with all my
favourite people , its gonna be GREAT
pretty much your just two faced and i want nothing to do with you

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

i didnt think help could come in the form of a person


but there you were










Tuesday, December 8, 2009


you breathe life back into me

Monday, December 7, 2009


cause i dont need to see it to believe it
i dont need to see it to believe it
cause i cant shake this fire
burning deep inside my heart
Ive realized that when people speak negative hurtful things into your world they scar and stay with you forever and eventually you start to believe those horrible things i refuse to believe them anymore .

Friday, December 4, 2009


Someone you haven't even met yet is wondering what it'd be like to know someone like you.
















It'd be nice if you could stay a while.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

she waits for him , i smile across her face
she runs to him with arms wide open
she says Daddy , i love you
your all i need and more you are me hero
hold me in your arms never let me go
before its to late i thought you should know
i love you , i wish that you didn't have to go
you make me laugh when no one else can
so please Daddy please come home
now things arnt the same
she wants to know him more than just by name
shes holding back those tears
so he doesn't have to see her sad
all she wants is to hear him say baby i love you
before its to late i thought you should know
i love you , i wish that you didn't have to go
you make me laugh when no one else can
so please Daddy please come home

By my little sister Katarina


the little time i spend with you means the world to me you have no idea . i wish i could see you more i hope things get better soon and you realize what shes doing to you because your not who you use to be and sometimes when were together and your away from that place and away from her i see the real you , and i love the real you more than you know . please come home .

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


things are good , really good

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Brittany , Chermayne and Lys you girls
are amazing last night was so much fun
"you remember me , you tried to get
my face pregnant " i love you