Sunday, August 30, 2009

you make me happy


very happy
and in case you were wondering you are like a hurricane to me .
your violence is beautiful , and your center sweet. and in case you were wondering , you are everything to me

i want a tattoo
something like these
i want something like this on my wrist but id make the bird and cage diffrent

amazing

i want this , but maybe a little more birds same place though

this is my favourite

i like this but the birds kinda look like bats

Saturday, August 29, 2009

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Friday, August 28, 2009


you broke your promise , you left when you said you wouldnt .

I'm tasting nothing but 4 words, please don't leave me

Thursday, August 27, 2009


over it .

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


sometimes i wish we could go back
when we were happy and everything was ok


but then i think of how when things got hard,you werent there and im glad things have changed,im glad ive realised what friendships i need to hold onto and im glad i let go of yours

next year please come quick , im tierd of all this i need a new start
ill keep you though

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

i feel sick , not ill sick just hurt sick i hate it

i need one of these , but only yours
my favourite , by far

Monday, August 24, 2009

Sunday, August 23, 2009




In a dream you appear for a while you were here
so I keep sleeping , just to keep you with me
Met my uncle David lastnight feels like ive missed out on 18 years that i could have known him,one of the nicest men ive come across from now on though i plan on getting to know him and having him as a part of my life .
its 4.OO am and were watching wrestling haha

Friday, August 21, 2009


im looking forward to tonight & tommorow night fun fun fun




i thought you would tell me something this important, im sorry for whatever
ive done thats made you not want to share things that mean so much to you
with me . ive tried i give up now .






Wednesday, August 19, 2009





Pull back the shield between us, and I'll kiss you, Drop your defenses and come, into my arms. I'm all for believing, I'm all for believing. I'm all for believing if you can reveal the true colours within. I know you blanket your mind so much that I am blind, but I, I see you've painted your soul into your guard, I'm all for believing, I'm all for believing I need to know just how you feel, to comfort you; I need to find the key let me in, into your heart, to find your soul. Pull back the shield between us, and I'll kiss you, Drop your defenses and come, into my arms. I'm all for believing, I'm all for believing. I'm all for believing, if you can reveal, the true colours within, And say you will be there for me to hold, When the faith grows old I'm all for believing And life turns cold, I'm all for believing When the faith grows old, I'm all for believing and life turns cold. So if you're cold I will stay, maybe fate will guide the way. I believe in what I see and baby we were meant to be, Just believe. Just believe. Just believe. Trust in me.


Breathe hope in me I need you I try so hard to make
this work in my life I still believe in you

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


thankyou for just being there
& making things so much brighter



as you drift further into the past my memory of you fractures and
splinters until all i can clearly remember is not a picture but a feeling

Sunday, August 16, 2009

today Kita Dan Brody & i went to half moon bay and saw the biggest flock of birds fly over the boats and water it was beautiful .



there was ten times more than this , it was heaven



you need to stop being so concerned with collecting beautiful things
and start being more concerned with making things beautiful








i missed you today



id never get it but i like this
ill never forgive him for changing you & taking you away from me .

Saturday, August 15, 2009





i know that the last time you saw me , i had a huge smile on my face and when you asked how i was i told you i was great and that things were amazing . but the truth is i miss you more than anything . i miss how happy you made me whenever we were together and how you would always make me laugh , i miss being so close to you and telling you everything and the voice you put on when you were in your "state" . i miss how we would cry together i miss spending every secound of every day with you i miss our night time walks at the beach , i miss when i would walk in and catch you on neopets but you would deny it , i miss going to your house and it felt like home , i miss when we would get bestmate and call each other from across the road , i miss when we would wake up in the morning and sing to eachother , i miss you and it hurts that were not the same and might not ever be but you will always be a bestfriend and ill always only be a phone call away . i would do anything to get what we had back . i love you



i wish you could see yourself through my eyes , then you'd know how beautiful you truly are

Friday, August 14, 2009



im very blessed

Wednesday, August 12, 2009








i love my sisters

the heart is a muscle like any other and the best exercise you can do for it is called picking yourself up off the floor .

bigbrother





"im on the video machine"
haha i love you

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

we expect each other to always be the people in that picture. but people change . people aren't pictures , and you can either take a new picture or throw the old one away .

Sunday, August 9, 2009

just one more thing










i love you
its 3.O7 am i think its time i go to bed
got church bright and early . goodnight
p.s i dont think i like my hair red
im gunna dye it brown tommorow

Saturday, August 8, 2009




ive spent most of my saturday night watching disney chanel , drinking coffee getting upset about crap , while everyones at the ball , thanks . on the other hand i hope your all having lots of fun :)











Friday, August 7, 2009


your pushing me away i know your doing it because your afraid . i dont wanna give up on you & im trying but eventually you will push me away completly . please dont let that happen

i love you

Thursday, August 6, 2009


i have the most amazing best friend , had a really long day today and when i got home there was 948747394 candy's on my bed and a note from kita . it made me smile so much definitely made my day . thank you so much bear , i love you with all my heart i wouldn't trade you for the world .

Wednesday, August 5, 2009


But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light


Just sing your favorite verse out of key, I still think it sounds so good to me.
Missy Higgins - amazing

Tuesday, August 4, 2009





i think about birds waaaaaaay to much










Monday, August 3, 2009


You breathed infinity into my world And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl. We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night. Then you said, "wait for me we'll fly the wind, We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him" but oh, Now my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found, But I was alive and now I've drowned. So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song So they can tell me I was wrong... But they weren't there beneath your stare, And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of Any bindings from the world outside that room. And they weren't taken by the hand And led through fields of naked land Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away... So I couldn't say "no". You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew. You were there blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say, I wouldn't say "no". But they all said, "you're too young to even know, Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him" But oh, now, my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found, But I was alive and now I've drowned. So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song So they can tell me I was wrong

Sunday, August 2, 2009


havent slept right in the last couple days , now im so tierd and its only 8.3O . im going to go to bed though hopefully this headache wont keep me awake again tonight .


p.s im really sorry

The stars lean down to kiss you,And I lie awake I miss you,Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,But I'll miss your arms around meI'll send a postcard to you dear, Cause I wish you were here.I'll watch the night turn light blue, But it's not the same without you, Because it takes two to whisper quietly, The silence isn't so bad, Till I look at my hands and feel sad, Cause the spaces between my fingersAre right where yours fit perfectly.