im starting to be happy more than im sad again , things are getting better . Halloween party tonight im excited .

i love you

oooooo baby i cant wait

you didnt do what you did because you care about me and you wanted to help , actions speak louder than words , you did it to hurt me .

I am finding out that maybe i was wrong .

That ive fallen down and i cant do this alone

Stay with me , this is what i need , please ?

today has been the best day Ive had in a long time , spent the day at the viaduct and mission bay , then went out for dinner with peepz . finally feeling better about things .

and im really looking forward to june

hahahahahahahahaha

tomorrow will not be like today.

tomorrow will not be like today.

tomorrow will bot be like today.

tomorrow i will be happy.

i told you something , because i needed to talk to someone and because i thought i could trust you ,but the fact that your going around telling people just proves i cant . thanks for nothing .

Everyone says that love hurts , but thats not true. Lonliness hurts , rejection hurts , losing someone hurts , envy hurts . Everyone gets these things confused with love , but in reality , love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain & makes

someone feel wonderful again .Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt .

i have alot going on with me , and i cant even talk to you about it . i really thought out of everyone you would be there .

road trip to tga soon , with the brother and friends cant wait .

I don't mind it I don't mind at all it's like you're

the swing set and I'm the kid that falls

soooo excited about next year .

There's something about the night and the way it

hides all the things I like little black butterflies deep inside me

town tonight will clo . guna get our dance on in dem clubs yo

schools nearly finished i need to :

. get a job
. get my licence
. save money to move into town early next year

next year will be a fresh start , i need it really bad im so over everything.

i love drinking "biscuit drinks" , singing really loud to beyonce , jumping the neighbours fence to get grapefruit eating nutmeg and laughing till we cry with Chloe . i love you

you wonder why i don't talk to you about everything like i use to , its because what happen last year and the hurt it broughtdoesn't just go away , and after a month i was meant to just get over it you didn't care anymore you never asked how i was doing , and when i did tell you why i was upset your reaction was "oh" and you would just walk away . that's why i don't want to tell you whats going on with me right now because if something that big didn't make you see that i needed you to care and i needed you to talk to me and be there then every other problem isn't gonna matter to you at all , and telling you would just be a waste of breath . I'm sorry that I'm "not the girl i used to be" but i have alot of hurt and anger built up in me and its getting harder and harder for me to hide . and your little digs at me every day are wearing me out faster .

its crazy right ? to love someone who hurts you

its even crazier to think that someone who hurts you , loves you

thankyou for geting me into the habit of not being able to sleep till the early hours of the morning its 1.30 and bed time wont be till maybe 3 if im lucky but im thinking tonights gunna be an all nighter . ive got to much going on it this head of mine.

ive never felt like this before .

nice try sweetie , did you really think id fall for your whole "im here if you need

anything" bull. i know what you were really up to im not stupied leave me alone.

Nahbee

Nakita Jade , thankyou for hugging me when i cried , thankyou for taking me for a drive so i could clear my head , thankyou for letting me stay at your house so i didnt have to be alone , thankyou for listening to me , thankyou for texting me and checking up to make sure i was ok , thankyou for being there , thankyou for being my bestfriend

bad beginnings make happy endings

i promise it will be ok

most messed up thing anyone could ever do to someone , i hope your happy with yourself .