finally going to get my nose pierced today :)

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing . It turns up when you don't really expect it . Its like one day you realize that the fairy tail may be slightly different than you dreamed . The castle well ,it may not be a castle . And its not so important happy ever after , just that its happy right now . See once in a while , once in a blue moon , people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away .

my moms up making cupcakes at 12.10 am

haha i love you mamma

what you've given me

is more than i can say

cause i don't know the words

to thank you properly

you pulled me from the grave

and stood me on a hill

and when i was afraid

you made me still

for the love you bring , owe you everything

for the breath you give your my cause to live

for the love you bring owe you everything

for the breath you give your my cause to live

for everything under the sun i owe you one

chaos all around

explosions and fire

you took me off the ground

and lifted me higher

when trouble knew my name

that was before you

ill never be the same

now that i know you

i love you and I'm sorry i don't come visit often but I'm so hurt by you and i hate the fact your so stubborn and refuse to believe or see what you've done to me , to her and to them is wrong i hate that this is gonna be the first Christmas well have without you , i hate that your getting sick and that i know if anything happen to you i would hate myself for not seeing you and telling you i love you more but i cant stomach being in that place and knowing you could change everything and make everything better if you wanted to , its been four years I'm tired of waiting . i miss you , the real you .

You really shouldnt say 'i love you' if you dont mean it But if you mean it , you should say it alot . People forget

dont be shocked if i cry

youv changed me inside

i turned my back on you

you were the only reason i pulled through

im better near to you

Christmas Party at my house tonight with all my

favourite people , its gonna be GREAT

pretty much your just two faced and i want nothing to do with you

i didnt think help could come in the form of a person

but there you were

you breathe life back into me

cause i dont need to see it to believe it

i dont need to see it to believe it

cause i cant shake this fire

burning deep inside my heart

Ive realized that when people speak negative hurtful things into your world they scar and stay with you forever and eventually you start to believe those horrible things i refuse to believe them anymore .

Someone you haven't even met yet is wondering what it'd be like to know someone like you.

It'd be nice if you could stay a while.

she waits for him , i smile across her face

she runs to him with arms wide open

she says Daddy , i love you

your all i need and more you are me hero

hold me in your arms never let me go

before its to late i thought you should know

i love you , i wish that you didn't have to go

you make me laugh when no one else can

so please Daddy please come home

now things arnt the same

she wants to know him more than just by name

shes holding back those tears

so he doesn't have to see her sad

all she wants is to hear him say baby i love you

before its to late i thought you should know

i love you , i wish that you didn't have to go

you make me laugh when no one else can

so please Daddy please come home

By my little sister Katarina

the little time i spend with you means the world to me you have no idea . i wish i could see you more i hope things get better soon and you realize what shes doing to you because your not who you use to be and sometimes when were together and your away from that place and away from her i see the real you , and i love the real you more than you know . please come home .

things are good , really good

Brittany , Chermayne and Lys you girls

are amazing last night was so much fun

"you remember me , you tried to get

my face pregnant " i love you

You found me upside down. Back to front. You pulled me out from the inside. I never said thank you .

so thank you for never leaving me , for always being there any hour of the day and for always showing me unconditional love im so thankful to have you in my life

How come you only use your blog to write about me ? Its flatering , but c'mon don't you think its a tad pathetic ?

i dont understand why i miss you

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like you have loved me

amazing day , amazing people , amazing God

you are the most beautiful person i have ever met

i love when randoms confess thier love for me on msn . wow

you have no idea how much our little talk meant to me i couldnt help the tears from filling up my eyes i was just happy to hear from you , to know you still care and to know your ok i know weve changed alot but you were one of the bestfriends ive ever had someone i could be completey myself with ill never forget the laughs untill we cried , the times i would come to your house and have nap in your cloud bed while you listened to music , how you'd make me toppers and bring them to me or how we walked to your dairy and you kept saying "i feel like im on skins" while we watched an old man try and play the hermonica to some gangster beats . you were a big part in my life and i will always love you . i miss you

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can start tomorrow
From stealing all my time

And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barley breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead

And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
Is there healing?
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be okay

Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

Im so happy

If I could take these words

And fill them up with air

I'd fly you to the stars
So we can disappear

If I could take your heart

And keep it close to me

I swear it will not break

I swear it will not bleed

i love him , amazing

you disgust me . your so fake i dont understand how you can act like my friend telling me things like "im here if you need to talk" and sending me all those text telling me you love and miss me , when the whole time youv been saying all that crap behind my back . and then when i confront you , you have nothing to say . grow up , your a coward .

today i have to dye my hair , go to my job interview then hangalang with hairy . its 11.OO I should get started .

i have a stalker , creeeeeepy

its true

and you brighten up the world

with your eyes and you're so damn

lovely when you're on my mind

cause you're the only one

yes please

orange juice , long drives , night time , winter , coffee , photography , painted nails , mo mo tea , Jesus , no more school , sarcasm , birds , green , high jacking Brandons car with Kaffy , dresses , op shops , tattoos and piercings , next year , my bible , cherry blossom trees , swimming with Kita , my cat , birds , long hair , sushi , the city , hammocks , nahbees , fireworks , holding hands , music , dress up partys , next july , the viaduct , a walk to remember , birds , blue eyes , big hugs , bright lights , sleeping in , my family , listening to lydia when i sleep & birds.

last day of school today , im glad its over but im gunna miss everyone so much . Fire works with all the year 13s tonight at the beach then water tower with some peepz. Going to be a good good night .

i went to mo mo tea lastnight , oh my it is amazing .

& i love you Kaffy .

I'm discontent with chasing the wind
i want to feel more than air on my skin

like the tide feelings come and go
here today gone tomorrow


i want love i want you
so take this beaten heart
and let it beat for you


I'm scared , yeah I'm scared
only you know how i feel
when i say i don't want to feel anything but love
true love , true love


watch me bloom cause soon ill wither
but your love lasts forever
like the sun life is beautiful
when i rise and when i fall

im starting to be happy more than im sad again , things are getting better . Halloween party tonight im excited .

i love you

oooooo baby i cant wait

you didnt do what you did because you care about me and you wanted to help , actions speak louder than words , you did it to hurt me .

I am finding out that maybe i was wrong .

That ive fallen down and i cant do this alone

Stay with me , this is what i need , please ?

today has been the best day Ive had in a long time , spent the day at the viaduct and mission bay , then went out for dinner with peepz . finally feeling better about things .

and im really looking forward to june

hahahahahahahahaha

tomorrow will not be like today.

tomorrow will not be like today.

tomorrow will bot be like today.

tomorrow i will be happy.

i told you something , because i needed to talk to someone and because i thought i could trust you ,but the fact that your going around telling people just proves i cant . thanks for nothing .

Everyone says that love hurts , but thats not true. Lonliness hurts , rejection hurts , losing someone hurts , envy hurts . Everyone gets these things confused with love , but in reality , love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain & makes

someone feel wonderful again .Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt .

i have alot going on with me , and i cant even talk to you about it . i really thought out of everyone you would be there .

road trip to tga soon , with the brother and friends cant wait .

I don't mind it I don't mind at all it's like you're

the swing set and I'm the kid that falls

soooo excited about next year .

There's something about the night and the way it

hides all the things I like little black butterflies deep inside me

town tonight will clo . guna get our dance on in dem clubs yo

schools nearly finished i need to :

. get a job
. get my licence
. save money to move into town early next year

next year will be a fresh start , i need it really bad im so over everything.

i love drinking "biscuit drinks" , singing really loud to beyonce , jumping the neighbours fence to get grapefruit eating nutmeg and laughing till we cry with Chloe . i love you

you wonder why i don't talk to you about everything like i use to , its because what happen last year and the hurt it broughtdoesn't just go away , and after a month i was meant to just get over it you didn't care anymore you never asked how i was doing , and when i did tell you why i was upset your reaction was "oh" and you would just walk away . that's why i don't want to tell you whats going on with me right now because if something that big didn't make you see that i needed you to care and i needed you to talk to me and be there then every other problem isn't gonna matter to you at all , and telling you would just be a waste of breath . I'm sorry that I'm "not the girl i used to be" but i have alot of hurt and anger built up in me and its getting harder and harder for me to hide . and your little digs at me every day are wearing me out faster .